Watching "Nancy's something's gatta give" is like listenning to Lisa's(小野丽莎） music.The intoxicating&closer feeling.It's just a sense regalement. Like a soft wind blowing through your cheek or a tender kiss from a lover.On the whole,it is a invigorative flow under a peaceful surface of romance.In one hand,it is easy going with a simple story and a sense of humor.While it is a interior monologue of a certain kind of people.Here,my adding up with "a certain kind"does not try to separate the character of Erica from the people before the screen.Quite on the contrary,I find the inner world of Erica which the director reveal to us is exactly a mini-mirror of the most late 20th.
　　
　　
　　 First, let's take a snapshot on the main female character Erica,who is a play writer with quite amount of reputation.She's also quite Bedermeier,sensitive,persistent.She's a divorced woman whose husband remarried a women 2 years older than her daughter and a women who seems a little tough to men as she has closed her heart from the outside world ever since her failed marriage.But when Harry comes into her longly world,everything has changed from then on.Harry,a 63-year-old man who's never dating a girl aged beyond 30 meet Erica in a position of her daughter's boyfriend.Maybe the fate blongs to both of the two odd people makes them finally together after a series of accidental happenchance.
　　 Like Harry once told Erica:you're the woman to love.you're my soul-mate.The two hearts finnally find their way home.It mightbe a little bit supprisingly romantic to see such two people turn out to be the rightest couple.But if we see more close to their deep soul,we may see the inevitability of their being together.Erica,whose tough face below is her weak heart&longing for love,she can't resist the pain caused by it even she denied to accept the truth.She's a typical portrait of the so-called "big girl".It makes the result that the world see her happy&wealth only she herself can hear the weep&cry whenever she's alone.It is pathetic for her.It reminds me a figure Richard cory from E.A.Robinson.Beside the shining appearance,he has nothing.The difference is that the poet never give cory a chance,while Erica find her angel---who suppose to rescue her from the endless blankness.
　　
　　 It's lucky for me too as I dream a happy ending in my forever dreaming which is led to a good sign.Ya,life is hopeful,even in such a gloomy day,which turns out to be a happy ending.
　　
　　"free at last,free at last,finally free at last!"

    这句话好像就是在说我，每天一早起来，我的脑海里就充满了各种各样七七八八的念头和想法，基本上我不喜欢说话，也很少说话，所以我不会表达自己，跟别人说话有时会辞不达意，然后就不知道该说什么了，所以我很害怕冷场，那让我觉得尴尬不知所措，甚至无地自容！我承认我很怕羞，有点怯懦，其实我也不喜欢这样的自己。可是要想改变好像没那么容易。

    所以，我喜欢在脑海里想事情，乱七八糟天南海北从现实到虚幻，我甚至还会编故事，把自己也编进去，有时候自言自语起来，偶尔有人听到了问我在说什么，我说没说什么，我只是在自言自语。我不管别人怎么看我，又重新投入到自己的意想世界里。所以，我不说话的时候并不见得脑袋空空，我很可能已想了很多事情，和自己辩论、回忆或者在思考生与死这样严肃的哲学问题。

    其实我今天的日志开始不该这么写的，我早晨起来就在想我要怎么写这篇日志了，想了很多，思维跳跃，很多碎片，毫不关联。我想到了衰老，因为我看到镜子里的我时，想到我已不再青春年少了，我正在渐渐老去，虽然外表看不出我的实际年龄，但我知道那些都不过是骗人的。当我一个人的时候，我该真实的面对自己，否则我就会忘了我是谁，但面对真实的自己有时候是件残忍的事。所以我又会幻想，幻想一切不可能发生但可以在幻想里实现的事。

 

      而这让我生出一种无力感，对生活对我想抓住的东西的无力感，所以我想到了时间，有时候时间真是个魔鬼，它可以悄无声息的改变一切，而你对此毫无办法，随着时间的流逝很多事情都会改变，也许变好也许变坏，我们都在时间的洗礼中变化着，不管你愿不愿意。

 

      可是今天天阴着，刚才还下了雨，天光很暗，真不知道今年的天气怎么这么反复.........